I have been doing a lot of thinking ... and thinking leads to realization.. and i have realized that ignorance is bliss.. Many times as human beings we find it hard to separate from things that are ultimately the cause of our demise.. Meaning objects, people, etc... I can call this true because i find it hard to separate from things that pose as distraction. Many of the same circles and cycles we run through are uncomfortable comforts...I'm always searching for a plateau unreached by others so i can eventually reach it so others can get to it too.. I used to think that happiness is on the inside..because it's darn sure not on the outside.
The concept of love , happiness, wealth, and success are things that i reach for on a daily basis. So much to the point were i sometimes compare myself to others levels who seelkthe same . But, identifying these points has made me more aware of my individuality. My mortality is the only thing limiting. I bet if i lived forever and a day i would still have the mindset to progress by any means...................
The structure of ignorance is daunting.... It seems so rectifiable ...but is stands firms .... Mainly insecurites i see in those around me .... Simply living vicarously...
I left L.a ... I left me..... I'm Learning about Tyree.
Well I'm back in Bakersfield taking my 3rd and last quarter of my freshmen year. I can tell this quarter is going to be surprising. I went to my work and my RS class. And this teacher is no Joke.... (((tyree Laughing))).... But ME and the roommate went to Get groceries for the room and i ate and chilled with Claudia some,,,, This girl is pretty chill... we were talking about racism, relationships, and retards lol jk... but I'm learning that you really have to take it one day at a time and find a goal and reach for it
This whole week has been leading up to this Moment............ WHat will happen to Jesus..
Let me give you some background:esus, having been arrested in the Garden of Gethsemane by the Temple Guards through the guidance of Judas Iscariot, is brought to the house of Annas, who is father-in-law of the current high priest, Caiaphas. Judas received money for betraying Jesus, and so that the guards knew who to arrest, Judas kissed Jesus, and the guards knew that whoever Judas kissed, that would be Jesus. There he is interrogated with little result, and sent bound to Caiaphas the high priest, where the Sanhedron had assembled (John 18:1-24). Conflicting testimony against Jesus is brought forth by many witnesses, to which Jesus answers nothing. Finally the high priest adjures Jesus to respond under solemn oath, saying "I adjure you, by the Living God, to tell us, are you the Anointed One, the Son of God?" Jesus testifies in the affirmative, "You have said it, and in time you will see the Son of Man seated at the right hand of the Almighty, coming on the clouds of Heaven." The high priest condemns Jesus for blasphemy, and the Sanhedron concurs with a sentence of death (Matthew 26:57-66). Peter also denies Jesus three times during the interrogations. Jesus already knew that Peter would deny him three times. In the morning, the whole assembly brings Jesus to the Roman governor Pontius Pilate, under charges of subverting the nation, opposing taxes to Caesar, and making himself a king (Luke 23:1-2). Pilate authorizes the Jewish leaders to judge Jesus according to their own Law and execute sentencing, however the Jewish leaders reply that they are not allowed by the Romans to carry out a sentence of death (John 18:31). Pilate questions Jesus, and tells the assembly that there is no basis for sentencing. Upon learning that Jesus is from Galilee, Pilate refers the case to the ruler of Galilee, King Herod, who was in Jerusalem for the Passover Feast. Herod questions Jesus but receives no answer; Herod sends Jesus back to Pilate. Pilate tells the assembly that neither he nor Herod have found guilt in Jesus; Pilate resolves to have Jesus whipped and released (Luke 23:3-16). It was a custom during the feast of Passover for the Romans to release one prisoner as requested by the Jews. Pilate asks the crowd who they would like to be released. Under the guidance of the chief priests, the crowd asks for Barabbas, who had been imprisoned for committing murder during an insurrection. Pilate asks what they would have him do with Jesus, and they demand, "Crucify him" (Mark 15:6-14). Pilate's wife had seen Jesus in a dream earlier that day; she forewarns Pilate to "have nothing to do with this righteous man" (Matthew 27:19). Pilate has Jesus flogged, then brings him out to the crowd to release him. The chief priests inform Pilate of a new charge, demanding Jesus be sentenced to death "because he claimed to be God's son." This possibility filled Pilate with fear, and he brought Jesus back inside the palace and demanded to know from where he came (John 19:1-9). Coming before the crowd one last time, Pilate declares Jesus innocent, washing his own hands in water to show he has no part in this condemnation. Nevertheless, Pilate hands Jesus over to be crucified in order to forestall a riot (Matthew 27:24-26). The sentence written is "Jesus of Nazareth, King of the Jews." Jesus carries his cross to the site of execution, called the place of the Skull, or "Golgotha" in Hebrew and "Calvary" in Latin. There he is crucified along with two criminals (John 19:17-22). Jesus agonizes on the cross for three hours while the sun is darkened. With a loud cry, Jesus gives up his spirit. There is an earthquake, tombs break open, and the curtain in the Temple is torn from top to bottom. The centurion on guard at the site of crucifixion declares, "Truly this was God's Son!" (Matthew 27:45-54) Joseph of Arimathea, a member of the Sanhedrin and secret follower of Jesus, who had not consented to his condemnation, goes to Pilate to request the body of Jesus (Luke 23:50-52). Pilate asks confirmation from the centurion whether Jesus is dead (Mark 15:44). A soldier pierced the side of Jesus with a lance causing blood and water to flow out (John 19:34), and the centurian informs Pilate that Jesus is dead (Mark 15:45). Joseph of Arimathea takes the body of Jesus, wraps it in a clean linen shroud, and places it in his own new tomb that had been carved in the rock (Matthew 27:59-60) in a garden near the site of crucifixion. Another secret follower of Jesus and member of the Sanhedrin named Nicodemus (John 3:1) also came bringing 75 pounds of myrrh and aloes, and places them in the linen with the body of Jesus, according to Jewish burial customs (John 19:39-40). They rolled a large rock over the entrance of the tomb (Matthew 27:60). Then they returned home and rested, because at sunset began the Sabbath (Luke 23:54-56). On the third day, Sunday, which is now known as Easter Sunday, Jesus rose from the dead.
Well today I woke up about 8 am to go to Kaiser Permanente to see my Doctor about signing something. After getting a quick check up i headed over to the dentist to get X-rays and a cleaning.,,,,, Why was my mouth numb for like six hours.......Lol... anyways after all the business was out the way i transported back home,,,, Were i met up Kris and demarius to visit my mom and sister @ the Nial shop as a surprise because my mom had not seen kris in a long time. I then Met with Jess to kick it for a few because we hadn't chilled since august so it was a long overdue reunion. We went to cold stone were i asked for my Dew shake and they didn't have it ...........whack.........
Well after all of this my sister and i discussed some of the family issues that presenting themselves at the moment in time. i reassured her that our faith in God is the only thing that gonna get us through this.....
Bryson M. has probably single handedly made me consider Danity Kane's as a real group((( Making the band 4 is funny tho)))! If you say Aubrey O'day around him he flips....In his own words he would probably say that for this post "You cold for that Tyresha Fam"!
Just Came back from seeing her in the hospital. This woman is the catalyst ......My Family needs all of the prayers we can get.... Lord Please bless her and heal her body.. The say that the woman who touched the hem of your robe was healed ... we need you to come and work a miracle,,,,
Well the fact of the matter is that I'm sort of looking for Her. And when i say Her. I mean the one who i could share my thoughts,feelings, and emotion's tell me to be patient..... Here's a my song dedicated to us ... who ever you are...?????I know you don't often find a guy whose interested in sharing all that. And the fact is I'm not your usual.
Today was intresting i really just rested and then went out to skate... Im really trying to learn how to relax... its hard because im so accustomed to being busy when i have free time i dont know what to do with myself ... Anyways i tried to get a shamrock shake from Mcdees and they ran out... Major wack.....anyways.... heres a pic of me drinking something atleast..mmm Lemonade\
Well today was intresting. I woke up around 9 and decided to take care a few errands.. Went to the bank.... Went to apple store....and went to the barber.... Then came home to practice my heelflip because my lil neighbors are better than me.. Well anyways i looked in my wallet to find out that my debit card was gone,,,,,,,((((Annoyed))))... Argued and made up with my mom..... then met with P and Somewhere else to work on New tracks.... Saw Shernette and marcus and them,,,, It was a good saturday got in about 2:30 !!!
Finally on Spring break man this quarter felt like forever. It really taught me alot about myself as well as others. Being @ csub has brought me to the realization that you cant shield yourself off from new opportunities.. Im meeting new and intresting people and learning alot of intresting things about myself.. like when i had a fro i felt more intune with who i was. I know that sounds shallow.. But having natural hair is important... I have so many different quirks and eccentrics but no gimmicks